Monday, July 30, 2012


I watched this movie "Kauwboy" in Erasmus Huis, the dutch cultural center on Saturday. the movie was so-so.. didn't mean to be cynical or something. I saw a chinese woman crying after Jojo's bird died. I didn't really pay attention during the  screening. I, glanced at the red light on my cell phone and checked if Steven had messaged me. ah, love.

I am quiet hungry right now. aw yeah. we can have dinner in 27 minutes. oh yeah, still a long way to go. 

I have been focusing on my studies recently. and I am excited to attend UI fashion week this august. I am actually eager to plan what clothes I'm going to wear. I am probably going to buy some shoes this august. I have already designed this weird brocade jumpsuit that I might wear in UIFW or JFW. but i am not sure that I will be confident enough wearing it. but too late, grandma has already brought it to her tailor, and she's working on it currently.. so yeah let's just hope that the jumpsuit won't look that ugly. 

I still have 2 more weeks for school, then I will get 2 weeks Hari Raya vacation. I don't think we will be celebrating the independence day this year. I don't give a shit either, so. yeah. well.. I think I'm done now.

Friday, July 27, 2012

growing up.

Looking at my little sister.. the way she tries to look older, to like celebrities fanatically, the way she hopes that everything goes right. It kind of reminds me that, she was the 6th grade version of me. and it's okay. it's okay to be enthusiastic. and she's in a great age to be enthusiastic. and I don't think I am, being a 16 years old girl is perfect for that kind of enthusiastic attitude. well my conclusion is, that I won't be acting like a crazy fan girl chasing for your attention anymore, or your tight shoelace trying to not let you go. you are only a human. and so am I. I'm no longer miserable anymore. 

Saturday, July 21, 2012

steven vince.

Turn my tears into drips of rainbow.  Only you dear I should know At night you will make me glow

Catch me as I fall into the sorrow
Turn my tears to drips of rainbow. 
Only you dear I should know
At night you will make me glow
"If memory was heaven, this must be hell" 
- Juliet, in America by Land

Meet the rabbit.

Hello. happy ramadhan! my name is agent collage 101. I was made of papers in magazine that were ripped off by fidy. she was totally mental and insomniac and upset when she made me. that's why my eye looks quiet angry and fierce. she couldn't sleep yesterday morning at around 4 am, and she decided to make me. and now here I am stuck in the scanner and wait for fidy to stick me in to her pink folder again. 

the story that never ends..

I prayed to God that night after we met. I begged Him to not make you disappoint me. And perhaps, you did pray too that night, and begged Him to let you disappoint me. Well I guess you got what you wanted. and I know that my feelings were never considered as your business... But I expected you, to at least care, but turned out that you didn't. and the problem is, it doesn't matter whether you did care or you really didn't, because it's always seemed like that you didn't. but I keep expecting that maybe someday you would, but the other side I know that you wouldn't. And somehow, I just can't stop expecting, when there's nothing to expect anymore. 

"Still everyday I think about you
I know for a fact that’s not your problem
But if you change your mind you’ll find me"

Messing with pictures in magazine

when it comes to boredom, everything happens. the truth is, I love messing with pictures. that one above is a picture of Hayden Panittiere, the actress who played scream4, and Heroes. well she obviously looks like a transsexual in that picture above. and why oh deer? because the branches make her look like a deer. so yeah. does that even make sense? 
another picture I messed... this is from Nylon Indonesia last year edition. both pics are from Nylon Indonesia last year edition. but I don't remember what month, they both were published. so that collage above, shows a girl who's jealous of another girl because she gets the guy. nothing personal with this picture, really. it was just this random idea. nothing from the core. I mean you know, when it comes to boredom... everything happens :)

Saturday, July 7, 2012

Singapore Part Two

Alright after switching Mozila to google chrome I can finally operate blogger again. peehew hehe. 

And oh yeah, I forgot to report that before I was leaving to Juurong, I had breakfast with my host family in this coffee shop nearby the town council. that's me, farah, and shi lei's mom. Shi Lei took this picture for us.doh-_-. I had mi sun or something like that for breakfast. it's like bihun in jakarta but completed with curry. it tasted kind of sour sweet.. but it was okay. 
after we had our mi sun breakfast, we headed to the public library in Juurong :D

So we visited snow city right after visiting the science center. they didn't allow visitors to bring their cameras inside, so we didn't bring ours. but there's this photographer who randomly took of everyone's picture so we could print our photos after playing around in the snow city. 

I got my pic with the group, and I printed it for 10 dollars. I could've scanned it to my computer and posted that pic in this post but I am way too lazy to do that, so neevrmind.

At night, shi lei and her mother took us to bugis street and arab street to buy souvenirs for our family in indonesa. i bought chocolates and gantungan kuncis. and t-shirts. after done shopping, they took us to this yogurt cafe where me and fara made our own yogurt. we couldn't finish it though. and it was pretty expensive. sorry shi lei. 

we finally went back home by the MRT after eating our yogurt. the train was full of people, though it was already 10 pm. busy spore. we got home at around 10.30 and we showered and finally went back to sleep at around 12 am. nice. 
The next day, Mr. Donda took us to raffles place. this picture, in your right, is a picture of raffless' statue. erm thomas stanford raffles... the founder of Rafflessia Arnoldi? remember?

he was also the founder of Singapore, kind of. he was also the governor of Bencoolen (Bengkulu) back then, in english colonialism time. Raffless place looks amazing. there are many tall buildings there. not just regular tall, but like, super tall buildings. 

and oh, i forgot to tell that I didn't activate my blackberry service during my summer camp. the MEA staff gave us this singapore sim card so it'd be easy for us to contact each other in singapore. I didn't get the chance to contact steven when I was there. I missed him so much, but since I finally got back to jakarta, I stop missing him <3

Just one day before we're departing to jakarta, we visited the marvelous universal studio in sentosa. it says "Universal studio, ride the movies" in the brochures. and it's true. the attractions are all based by movies that were made by The Universal Production. 
when we first entered the recreation park. I saw people taking pictures with these funny hats. I approached them and they actually provide the funny hats for us to take pics with. generous Singaporeans...

<- this farah, tabina, and me, in our orange shirts and our funny hats just not too far from the universal studio entrance. 

we got there by this direct bus from summer view hotel in Little India. the trip took 30 minutes I suppose. no traffic jam along the roads. unfortunately the weather that day wasn't too great. it was raining heavily when we got there (the universal studio). we had to use our umbrellas, some of us bought the raincoats. it was pretty lame..

the rain finally stopped after we rode this transformer ride. it was like a 4D roller coaster. Dofan certainly doesn't have it. I mean, come on haha. 

this is the biggest coaster. it has two rails and trains.. the blue rail and the red rail. i think the blue one is the most tragic haha. because it just seems too dangerous. and this coaster runs for 90 seconds so that's like soooo fireaking fast oh my god. 

Only me and Tabina from our group who were brave enough to ride the coasters. although the blue one for me, was more scary than the red one, the blue one was more thrilling that the red one. so yeah i think you just gotta try both of them to achieve your own comparison. 

this is me, taking a picture in front of teh mighty real life t-rex. hahaha just kidding it's just a statue duh silly. omg when i first showed it to steven, he was like "T FUCKING REX FIDY, BECAREFUL!"
damn hahaha,

he's just really that lebay. really that lebay. erm, I wish steven could've come with me to singapore. we'd have some badass time.

and look at that weird face caucasian ahahaha. i don't know if she was trying to smile or just stick her tongue out, but that looks fucking ugly like so fucking ugly, like totally fucked up. 

before going back home, I had my face painted. well not only me. Tabina and Farah also got their faces painted. it cost me 10 dollars for that pink tiger painting doh. well, we finally went back home after having this farewell party in this restaurant near the universal studio. and the next morning we're already departing to jakarta. it's been such a great experience, here in singapore. 
 I hope I'll be able to visit it again someday... :)

the end

Singapore Part one.

I just had the greatest vacation getaway in my entire life. ahem, exaggerattion. But seriously, it was just too great. Singapore seems to be very different from Jakarta. I would love to spend the whole vacation just to get lost in the MRT. It was quiet a gift that I could visit that awesome city for five days. I joined this summer camp program from the MEA. and I had this marvelous homestay in those 5 days.

I left jakarta on Monday, July 2 2012. the plane left at 7:20 I guess. They placed me a seat between these two men. they were quiet. and I did not talk to them at all. they were like, apathy. oh my god, just kidding. In singapore, 4 of the participants had to stay with my host family, included me. me and my friend farah had to stay with this family who live in Yishun, while the others stayed in this Parc Sovereign hotel in Little India. I stayed in Shi Lei's house. she was my big sister for 5 days.
I got into the group C. we had farah (the onw who wears the veil in <- this picture), and then we had tabina, the one with the skirt, me, the girl with a cap, kevin, the boy with long black jeans, and rama, the guy without a cap. eventually, our group was chosen as the best group since we just got there. and it was amazing. they gave this notepad from universal studio.

the boys, kevin and rama had to stay with this indian boy named Madavan, based what I've heard from them, Madavan was fun and nice. so was Shi Lei.

when we got there, we had to carry our luggages around MRT station. it was quiet weird because people were staring at us like, what the hell are those indonesian kids doing? so it was pretty embarrassing.

Mr. donda, our facilitator gave us this task where we had to take photos in certain MRT stations. and we did. and we didn't get lost at all, thanks to Rama. Rama likes to travel alone, he could've gotten lost but he didn't. doh-_-. you really have to keep your eyes on him or else he'd be gone in five seconds. but fortunately, rama had always given us correct ways of getting the stations so we didn't get lost at all.  

singaporeans would speak english. but they have their own accent. and the elders barely speak english, so you better try to learn chinese when you meet a chinese grandpa in singapore.

the picture above was taken in this town council near Yishun. and this pic next to this sentence is a pic of rama, travelling in front of us, alone. he had no idea where he was heading to, oh my god-_-. and erm, i didn't catch any traffic jam during my time in there. it would be like miracle in jakarta. at least, in jakarta, I have to get stuck in traffic jam one hour a day. but in singapore, nah none. it's probably because the country is that small, or maybe it's because of the super fast MRT they have there.

Man, i'm looking forward a huge revolution for this city. and then this country. but I am not into politics and shits. so yeah i think we should figure another way out.

roads in singapore usually have 3 lanes. but I didn't see a huge ass amount of vehicles operating. i think that's another reason why singapore seems so anti-trafficjam. in our second day, we went to science center, public library and also snow city. the science center is like museum iptek, here in jakarta. and no shits, singapore science center was better than museum iptek in jakarta. no patriotism bullshits, everything was better than what we have in jakarta. no bullshits. 

  <- that's me in the bus terminal, in our second day. it was taken in the morning so I looked pretty neat still. and oh, before we leave to public library, Shi lei and her mom took us to this town council near our home. you can see that in that pervious pic.
And then we took the MRT, me and the MEA participants, and we headed to public library in Juurong. I didn't take any pictures of anything in there. I was afraid they would forbid me and take my camera away and concern about me being a pirating bitch. so yeah, I didn't take any pics in there. what a pity, I should've just given it a try doh. 
 after writing a book summary, we finally left the public library and we headed to this food court and we had lunch there. I had this tasty nasi lemak and fried chicken and trimmed soybean cakes for lunch. it's like, nasi uduk set in jakarta. it was dope. oh yeah nasi lemak. here's the pic of nasi lemak... ->

after lunch, we headed to science center nearby the food court. I thought it was all about "you must understand what eintstein's way of thinking" kind of place, but it wasn't. 

-> this is another picture of me. it was taken in the science center, in the earth section. i was standing in front of this entrance of this mini volcano. i didn't really read the facts. omg haha. I was just pushing available buttons in many exhibits there. I got into social faculty, for god's sake. can i just get rid off science forever? hahahaha.  No fidy you can't, because science is just absolute and you can not mess with it. hah. talk to my bon bon ahahahaha.  

Hold on, I am lazy to type, this often happens when I don't know what to write about anymore. I have to think for several minutes. bwaahah.

to be continued


Captured by my sister's i-pod
 Oh sorry for not sparing my time for blogging, folks.
 I got a haircut before leaving to singapore. it looks pretty weird, I kinda look like a mushroom head now oh my god-_-. anyways I love it short though. I really do. JOKES. I love it long. I have quiet many of split ends, so I had to cut it. I didn't plan to trim my hair like that. this hairstrylist said that she wanted to add some layer-trim which would've  looked good on me. oh yeah sure. when I left the salon, I looked uber good. now it's blah. I look like a mushroomhead doh. I hope it'll be long enough on november as I have been planning to attend jakarta fashion week. anyways. yayski. feliz vaccaciones.