Sunday, October 30, 2011

The last day of Nylon fashion and art festival

So I went to Nylon fashion and art festival today. It was held in Plaza Indonesia, Jakarta. It was my first time to see a "direct" fashion show. cause last year i didn't get the chance to go to Jakarta Fashion Week, cause i was, underage.

 I arrived at 2:30 pm. Immediately, I walked into the fourth floor, and when i got there i found the location was empty. And then i found this girl who wore this leopard-patterned legging, and long cardigan with t-shirt tucked in it. she was, unbelievably, stylish. she was talking with the crew, and i confidently joined their conversation.
"Excuse me." I said.
They both looked at me. "Um are those seats for public?" I asked them.
The leopard girl said "Oh yes, that's for public." and the crew added, "but the show hasnt started yet. come back here around 3:30, so you can book a seat."
"Can i book a seat now?" I insisted. i was afraid i wouldn't get the seats doh.
"Unfortunately, no..." she said. she gave me this brochure with the schedules on it.
So eventually, I went downstairs and had a desent drink in starbucks

After spending 30 minutes in that cafe, i finally left. i walked around the mall for another 30 minutes. I saw several arts that were exhibited there.

I also saw these Hip Monkeys statues from kipling. these statues were made by these contestants of Kipling Hip Monkey competition. 

Well at last, I went back to the location. I registered my name there. put my name, e-mail, phone number there. they gave me this Nylon magazine and this goodie bag from make-up store. I took the front seat! yeay! Today, I saw this fashion show by this brand called "CottonInk". The Nylon face-off finalists themselves who brought the collections in such a short, catwalk. 

the models suddenly walked in, ans posed like gorgeous statues on the stage

that one above, was my favorite. 

Well at last, after doing a parade, those models finally posed on the stage again. they were all beautiful. damnnn

Well that's my story for now :)
I had a marvelous day today. I hope i'll get the chance to attend Jakarta Fashion Week this November. Thanks for your time!

Friday, October 28, 2011

Emotional blackmail

And one day you'd be gone.
just like that.
gone, none. nothing.
even a "Goodbye" wouldn't even matter to me.
ROUTINE. perhaps... this a routine.
an endless cycle. you meet someone, you lose someone.
routine. constant routine.
Nice blog, fid. very emotive.


Painting by Claude Monet; "Ice floes, misty morning"

One night in summer, windless
The room i sat in was dark, lightless
I read down there blindly
Feeling nothing but only me

Sounding voices vibrate
Try so hard to penetrate
My deaf closed ears,
But there only go my tears

Thinspo ; Thin inspiration

Okay, i shouldn't really post this kind of thing. because by posting it, i indirectly support eating disorders such as bulimia and anorexia. but since nobody reads my blog, so... HA!

1. Abbey Lee Kershaw

2. Anja Rubik

3. Julia Saner

4. Freja Beha Erichsen

5. Hannah Murray 

So that's all for now. Have a nice, delightful diet everyone! Remember, healthy's first! 

Oh wow, this is just lovely.

"I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight
Help me get over you
One last false apology
Help me get over you
Now we must let go...
" - Alesana

"Turn around and head in different directions,
Like we never, it's like we never knew each other at all.
We said what we feel, then we stop ourselves,
And just walk away.
Never looking back,
Loving every second of it,
we just walk away." - Chiodos

Thursday, October 27, 2011

I would love to be "her"


Painting by Claude Monet; "Impression, soleil levant"

Misery. Miserable. what a great mourning. what a wonderful waste of time; being pathetic. It's obvious to me. it's obvious that i actually love being miserable. like i've left something behind, but reluctant to come back... it's like, i haven't finished my story yet... it's basically, procrastination. i am procrastinating my feet to walk straightly forward. but there's always this annoying U-turn as i start to let it go. 
And now that i've realized what a waste of life I've been, it makes me think that it's okay to be like this. i am not leaving now. i am not trying to. not now, not yet.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

boredom; 50 random questions

1. What time did you get up this morning?
4:50 am
2. How do you like your steak?
steak as in food right? i like sirloin steak from new zealand.
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
Fast and Furious 5 i guess.
4. What is your favorite TV show?
Currently, i have no interest of watching tv
5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
Hallstatt, Austria.
6. What did you have for breakfast?
a bread
7. What is your favorite cuisine?
i like indonesian food the most :D
8. What foods do you dislike?
sushi, weird looking thai food, stink ass indo food with weird chilly sauce. ew.
9. Favorite Place to Eat?
10. Favorite dressing?
like as in clothes for me or for people? i like comfortable casual dressing. kinda. i don't know it depends on ma mood bebe.
11.What kind of vehicle do you drive?
havent got my license yet doh
12. What are your favorite clothes?
i like baggy t-shirts, skinny jeans, blouses with floral fabric, vintage shits.
13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?
Hallstatt in austria. san diego in the us, mecca in saudi arabia, ibiza island, millau and grasse in france, bristol and birmingham in england, leipzig and frankfurt and munich in germany, verona and milan in italy, this forbidden and also hidden city in japan, kho pang ngan in thailand, damascus in syria, voronezh in russia, and sooo many more!
14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?
they're the same aren't they?
15. Where would you want to retire?
retire as in retirement right? where else but home? doh
16. Favorite time of day?
when i just care less about people and enjoy my awesome life alone, with no fucking annoying distraction.
17. Where were you born?
Jakarta, Indonesia.
18. What is your favorite sport to watch?
i used to love watching soccer match on tv, now it's blah.
19. Who do you think will not tag you back?
this girl i know. HAHA
20. Person you expect to tag you back first?
that girl i told you about. doh
21. Who are you most curious about their responses to this?
this friend. a pretty damn close friend :)
22. Bird watcher?
a what?
23. Are you a morning person or a night person?
how about..... afternoon person?:D
24. Do you have any pets?
25. Any new and exciting news you’d like to share?
26. What did you want to be when you were little?
an astronaut or a scientist :D
27. What is your best childhood memory?
i remember a lot of memories from my kindergarten...
28. Are you a cat or dog person?
i don't like animals.
29. Are you married?
no! duh
30. Always wear your seat belt?
Only when i sit in da front seat.
31. Been in a car accident?
Thankfully, nope. 
32. Any pet peeves?
what the fuck is that?
33. Favorite Pizza Toppings?
cheese nommmmmm
34. Favorite Flower?
lilies and tulips
35. Favorite ice cream?
vanilla with oreo topping
36. Favorite fast food restaurant?
37. How many times did you fail your driver’s test?
haven't tried it yet bebe
38. From whom did you get your last email?
39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
i dont have any credit card, so.. 
40. Do anything spontaneous lately?
41. Like your job?
being a student? f no
42. Broccoli?
what the fuck?!
43. What was your favorite vacation?
central java trip with my family. it's da best vacation i've ever had so far :)
44. Last person you went out to dinner with?
My mum
45. What are you listening to right now?
The sound of this guy that's praying in the mosque not too far from mi casa.
46. What is your favorite color?
pastel colors
47. How many tattoos do you have?
whoa i have like 3546789087654324567890 tattoos!! HAHAHAH i mean zero. 
48. How many are you tagging for this quiz?
dude we're not on da stupid facebook.
49. What time did you finish this quiz?
5:59 pm
50. Coffee Drinker?
F yea!

Monday, October 24, 2011


Painting by Salvador Dali; "Girl in the window"

So there's you
Tiny, beautiful name in my note
Spread all over those poems I wrote
Doesn't matter they're rhyming or not

And there's me
In the window I stand thinking,
About our story that's still writing
Without neither our pens interfering

Sunday, October 23, 2011

The loss of the spirit

Painting by Edvard Munch; "The Scream"

Someday shall her body live under the ground,
Out of nowhere that can never be found
Live secretly without a sound
As the earth rotates and still around

But sometimes there shows up her curiosity
About him she'd ask in her endless journey
She says "Baby, do you cry and think about me?"
But they wouldn't allow him to hear nor see

Now shall she live in a world without color,
Black, white or what he looks for,
With happiness, joy, and love galore
It won't happen to her anymore


ah ga jadi.
JADI saya... erm... nostalgic. well i should've stopped mourning but um memories stick around, so it's kind of hard. Well it's not even a big deal it's just the past. i used to use simple future tense back then, now i always use simple past tense. it's pretty damn ironic to me doh.

Monday, October 17, 2011


Painting by: Edvard Munch "The Moonlight"

You sleep then you dream
You wake up and find no gleam,
It's only fantasy darling,
The one that keeps you smiling


Painting by: Rene Magritte "The Big Family"

Dear "friend",
I wouldn't know how this would end
But once you read the note I tried to send
You 'd know things I tried to pretend.

What would I do if I had to go,
Cause away from you I couldn't say Hello
For the fact that I'd miss you so,
Do you even wanna know?

The secrets that's never been told
What was new and how it turned old,
How it become brown to a gold,
The feelings for you that I'd always hold


I talked to my friend two days ago. This friend is super awesome, and super psychic. and he's all mine so fuck you! or not.
Well I actually wanted to talk about something that has something to do with the word "wisdom". but since this friend's bothering me by asking what i'm blogging about right now, it makes me reluctant enough to arrange words into something that has something to do with the word "wisdom"
I am not making any sense now. wow fid. WOW.
i actually found a new word today "judicious" oh my god. that word was used around 1500 - 1600. and i found it on 2011. it's pretty damn awesome. it means "wise" based on my googlling research. but i am not the native, so fuckyou. anyways i think that's it for now.

take care always.
fido dido

Thursday, October 13, 2011


So here's the deal.
I really really want to, but people don't want me to.
like, i am quiet sure with this one intention but people aren't just so sure. Well based on liberalism we all should just stick into our own "theories". but what lame ism, once you fail, they will just say upfront to you that they've told you so. duh. so it's pretty hesitating moi i don't know if i should go or i should stay or...

Time to pretend


painting by: Rene Magritte

Long way back I'd go if I could,
Hurt my hand I would if I should,
But I couldn't be what you called was good
What would you If I had stood,

In front of you I would cry
Hope you'd say it was okay
Together once more we would pray
Besides with you I would lay

But tears are meant to be kept
Come to me I shall accept
Your fierce and angry you've kept
It's me myself supposed to be swept

Wednesday, October 12, 2011


Painting by: Vincent Van Gogh "Boulevard de Clichy"

when eyes wide open but sights are gone,
when ears hear nothing but a nothing tone
when you feel breathless as you breathe the air
when you think that why god wouldn't be just fair,

what would you find in an empty line?
where shall you go with legs in a chain?
we all sink again, sink again
we shall live again, live again


Well hello! I have a pottermore account duh. my welcome e-mail just arrived last week. huzzah huzzah!
Username: Charmpumpkin154
Wand: eleven and half inches wand made of english oak, with unicorn core, that's also slightly springy duh.

And I got into Hufflepuff. I never really wanted to be in hufflepuff. I was kind of expecting maybe i could get into Gryffindor or Ravenclaw, but nah. Hufflepuff. I was kind of  upset at first. but then i thought that it was okay to be in the Hufflepuff cause it has raccoon as its symbol.

Hufflepuff for da win!


And as I start to find another way,
So I tell myself "Shall once more i stay"
It's myself failing the same play
"An idiot's stumbling again" dare i say