I've never wanted to be apart from you, stay close to me.

Alright, Monday.

So I am actually staying at home today. I didn't go to school. I told my mom I had a headache and she believed me. In fact, I was just super lazy to get up as this is Monday and Indonesian school has this weird flag raising ceremony every monday morning so it's reall frustrating. so I lied, I told her that I had a headache. Two days before I've been having flu, but no headache, although last night I had fever. I really enjoyed staying at home. I almost cried thinkign I couldn't do something like this in another time... Sometimes, I wounder if I ever will be able to just, be free in my house. You know, like blog my mind out.

 

I have been feeling like, I lost everything. I am an individual, not a clone. I keep reminding myself that. I have lost my cellphone and I felt like half of my soul was gone, was lost, and I was trying so hard to gain money to buy me a new phone. You know, I have actually been writing. essays, and stories. I actually applied this essay to join this essay competition and the prize actually made me droll. The announcement of the winners is on October 10, and somehow I know I would lose, but in the other side, I am dying, wishing to win. like dying. like, I was really begging my God to please, please please let me win this competition, let me just get the money and get half of my soul back by getting a new cellphone. But then I thought ah damn I am so not gonna win. There are more than 1000 essays applying. I've seen the titles of them and they sounded so great, just looking at the titles. I am so screwed. Hopeless is what I am now. I honestly could care less about school as I just really really want a new cell phone. you know, to get my lfie back. my current celly is this old nokia that doesnt even provide calculator and internet service. I was dying in economy examination cause I couldn't use the calculator, and I was dying in my french test cause my current cell phone doesn't provide frnehc dictionary. I felt sick. I hope that cell phone stealer wold have his dick landed over by a truck. The other side, I am trying to be very very tolerant. I mean the stealer's wife or kid mustve been dying he started to steal. but I would accept no tiny mercy if he did it on purpose, if he did it as a profession. no mercy at all. But I keep reminding myself that I am an individual, not a clone. I shouldn't be depended on gadgets. I am an individual, not a clone. I am a human, not a robot. Pft, I will never ever be able to feel good enough.

Still, I am glad I didn't go to school today.

Candy Lab Market&Museum Report!

Oh Hello people! Talking about what's so out of date is my Candy Lab Market and Museum report. Candy Lab Market and Museum is an event which was held in Grand Indonesia Shopping Town from September 6th to September 8th. It's almost October today, and I haven't got the time to blog my mind out recently, so yeah, this is it. 

I went to the event with my mom and my sister, right when we wntered the venue, we saw this gorgeous illustrations, and you know, candy decorations and also some laboratory tools. This event contains so many fashion stalls, which brands are quiet independent. I was really astonished, seeing so many young people being so creative with their own brands. 

Most of the products were unique, talking about tthe designs... the patterns of the fabrics. They didn't only sell clothes and shoes, and jewelries, they also sold decorations, even stationaries. The prices they offer can be expensive, but there are some affordable prices too. I was disappointed that I didn't bring a lot of money to shop, so I was just looking around. I was completely amazed and hypnotized by all the stalls. It was such a great place to visit, to walk by. 

There was also food corner where people sold food... more like snacks, actually. I bought those cupcakes, one green tea flavor and the other one was red velvet. they tasted really good I mean you could really feel the green tea and red velvet flavors jumping on your tastebuds. There was also Puyo, the pudding jakarta people are talking about. There was also this turkish kebab which was sold and served by the real turkish seller. Pretty interesting. 

There were so many interesting people visiting... they would visit this event with unique clothes and styles. I found it really fascinating. I would love to visit it again, with a lot of money in my bag of course. So far, I am still astonished by the creativity of young Indonesian designers. Keep up the spirit, guys! see you in the next event.

Sesat

Hai teman-teman. Sudah lama banget loh gue gak nge blog. Liburan puasa aja gak sempet nge blog sama sekali. Oiya, handphone gue baru dijambret, jadi tolong delete contact gue ya. Gue waktu itu lagi main HP di bajay, terus ada orang naik motor, ngambil HP gue dari luar. Tai banget gak? So, bagi lo semua yang menggunakan transportasi itu, please jangan main HP. Jangan keluarin HP, dan jangan duduk dekat pintu. Dan buat pemerintah, tolong ya itu bajaj dikasih jendela. Dari kaca kek, plastik kek. Tolong banget dikasih jendela. Ini udah 2013 loh.

Sekolah. Mungkin itu tempat yang paling gue hindari untuk dipikirkan. Gue udah kelas 3, dan gue udah tujuh belas tahun. Yang selalu gue sayangin adalah, kenapa kelegalan gue dibarengi dengan masa-masa dimana kata Ibu gue harus "fight". sementara, dengan diakuinya gue sebagai penduduk yang sah, gue bisa apply internship di berbagai tempat, contohnya.. *batuk* Jakarta Fashion Week *batuk*. Tapi karena udah kelas tiga, gue gak diizinin. Gue udah nunggu magang ini dari gue SMP. Tapi pas gue legal, gue malah gak bisa ikut magang itu. Yang jelas, sekarang gue lagi sewot-sewotnya sama sekolah dan pelajaran. Especially matematika. Fuck Integral, Limit, Fungsi, dan keinvers-inversan yang mereka sebabkan. Ngitung luas rumah? Oke. Ngitung luas kurva? siapa yang mau tinggal di dalem kurva woy.......

Yang bikin gue semangat di hari-hari kelas 3 ini tuh nulis. I may give up on my school, but I won't give up my passion. Kalo bisa, lo semua cari deh sekolah yang sesuai sama passion lo. Makan ati tau gak belajar kegilaan matematika. Kalo ada sekolah negeri khusus blogging gue juga mau. Tapi lagi-lagi masalah tuntutan masa, tuntutan dunia, globalisasi, kita harus jadi manusa yang modern, kata orang tua. Kita harus serba bisa, kita harus inilah itulah.Pft. Inget gak sih... jaman purba dulu, manusia bisa cebok aja udah alhamdulillah.. kenapa sekarang jadi banyak mau ya-___- 

Gila. udah ngetik panjang-panjang, inti dari posting gue ini cuma ngedumel. Maaf guys. Selamat menunaikan hari Senin<3