Discussing Near Death Experience (NDE)

Indonesia has this curriculum where they actually make classes for religious studies. Muslim, Christian, Catholic, Hindu, Buddha, they have their own classes. Yeah, it's actually forbidden to be atheist in Indonesia, they sometimes relate it to the "damned" communist party, that they called PKI. First thing first, you all should know that Communism has NOTHING to do with Atheism. But you know back in elementary days, the teachers would actually say that the communists were actually atheists. And we are so obliged to believe in God, and we are so obliged to choose a religion for ourselves. So yeah.

Today, we discussed about near death experience. In islam it's actually called "Sakaratul Maut", Hindu and Buddha believe in reincarnation, so they don't fear death, as death is inevitable, and as they would actually come back to life, in another shape of body.

I know that, there is a final release of endorphins as we experience NDE. Endorphin makes people happy, so do u think there will ever be a dark process of the death? Soul, the essence of life, who the hell knows where it is. It's strange, it's strange that we are supposed to feel 100% of our own body, our organs. But soul, soul is, soul is not organ, is not body, it's not what we say, or think. Okay, everything comes from the brain, your breath, your heartbeat, your sweat, everything, the brain controls. But soul, soul is something that controls the brain. But we don't know where the soul is. So what is the essence of human afterall? It's not brain, nor heart.

Scientists have concluded stages of NDE, from many point of views, including science and religion. And here it is...

Stages of NDE

 

1.A sense of peace at the time of death

2.A sense of separation from the body.

3.A sense of entering into darkness.

4.Seeing a bright light.

5.A sense of entering the light

stage one, many movies show peace when it comes to death. My religion shows that there will be no one, not being nervous when it comes to death. So all this movie that we have watched, is wrong? Thy're lies?

Separation of the body, detachment, levitation. It's very realistic. As we know that death is the time when the soul inside us is leaving.

The thoughts abotu darkness and lights are still being questioned. People do different things in life, not all business is done, not all debts are paid. So where do we go now? What is dark and what is light in this case anyways? Scientifically, we haven't proven that there is actually afterlife after the death. So what I can say about the destination is, we the light comes when our brain releases the endorphins, but the darkness comes when we start to close our eyes automatically.

Does my assumption make sense?

Interpreting Beethoven's Silence by Ernesto Cortazar

Ernesto Cortazar

OH MON DIEU. This is my very first time, interpreting an instrumental music. Well I've tried to think about "The Entertainer" by Scott Joplin. But I couldn't imagine a word, just a situation, an entertainer asking his audience, laughing, and his audience answering his jokes, in such a crowded bar.

I was thinking what I should post about tonight. And I came up with, oh music. And I randomly thought of, Beethoven. And then Oh! Let's try Beethoven's silence by Mr.Cortazar!

I suggest you to open the youtube video in the new tab, so you can read my interpretation while listening to that song.

So here it is..

The song starts with the sound of confusion. We can conclude that it's the first time Beethoven felt his deafness. And it keeps making him confused, until, he started asking. "Why? Why would this kind of thing happen to me?" and he continues, crying in his silence, thinking about his tragic fate, thinking about how he should live without music, thinking so so deeply, that he actually drowns in his own feelings, and he starts to be confused again, feeling strange of the deafness he has.

But then life goes on, as his silence stays with him. He still questions though, the questioning part is still right there. But in this part he starts to learn to live with it, although he hasn't accepted the fact that he won't be able to hear again, but he's starting to move on. We still can't sense sincerity. 

The next part begins with another confusion. I can feel the way he walks real carefully, he sees real carefully, being so alert with his surroundings by just using his vision. The poor Beethoven is still sorry about his fate.

The last part, yet Mr. Beethoven is still adapting with his deafness, confusion part, asking part, remembering his tragedy parts. And the section keeps repeating. Somehow I think Ernesto Cortazar is actually trying to say that Mr. Beethoven wasn't so delightful accepting his inevitable fate of being deaf. But actually, I think the ending is supposed to be filled with the sound of, revelation, of relief, as Beethoven actually composed 9 fucking great symphonies in his silence. Mr. Cortazar gave me a tiny tiny bit of relief feeling though. When? at the very end of the song. He raised the tone, umm it made me feel like, though Mr. Beethoven was questioning, trying a bit to accept the fate, feeling so uncomfortable adapting with silence, but at the end, he actually... kind of, gave everything up to the universe. 

It's like, it's him saying "And it's all your willings, dear God." 

 And the song ended.

OH! Jeez, the high tone part is actually the end of his silence! As he returns to whom he's supposed to return, maybe he starts to compose those symphonies, and maybe that's the beginning where Beethoven is no longer silent. 

That just gave me chills.

One single note, describes one great conclusion.

Shit.

Bravo, Mr. Erensto Cortazar!

You really got me there.

(p.s: if my interpretation is actually mistaken, please let me know)

A story of a friend

Something dragged me to that one night. It was just me and my friend, he was sad. He told me about this girl he had been talking to.

He told me, "Fidy, I told her how she shines like the moon in night time. I told her that I would die if she left me. And I listened to her music. I liked her favorite singers. I watched her favorite movie. And she didn't want me at all."

I added, "and you liked her hobby, and you liked her photo applications, and you started wanting to meet her favorite singer."

And I told him, "You weren't being yourself, or any other guy. You became her."