'Chill'

Indonesians might try to elongate the word "chill" into "chilly" which means 'cabe' which only Indonesians would know what they're thinking about. I've been feeling chill lately, like chill I haven't been accepted to any university, chill I have just been disappointed by a worthless douchebag, chill my friend is struggling civil war in Syria, chill that my other friends are breaking up and the woman is getting married with another man, chill that Waldo is ignoring me because I just don't grant his "wish". Chill to everything, chill to even hearing that everything's collapsing. chill. chill is a very awesome word. saying, "chill" to myself, to my siblings, my family, to everyone, to animals, chill. It's just very fun to be chill.

I've googled how to make my mood stable. how to be happy most of the time. there are 4 legal things to do to be "chill": No

1. Eat a chocolate, chocolate somehow makes your body release endorphin

2. Work out, that's why i like jumping a lot

3. Eat fruit

4. Eat vegetables

I've been eating chocolates and thinking about chocolates. it makes me smile jus taste it on my tongue, and I release my happiness by jumping around a lot to make me even happier, I also try to eat fruits and veggies after eating the main course. no shit. chocolates make you happy. In the end what I want is to chill, with my headsets on, with these troubled people around me. chill is a very awesome thing to feel. so just be chill everyone.

Grey

Dear feelings,

I am tired of polishing my nails in the morning, while you in the other side making me thinking of chocolate. The internet told me that chocolate, fruits, and sports make people happy. Feelings, you let me fall deep in hope and you make me crawl to achieve, what I hope for. I've been up there, and I've been down there. Sometimes, I barely know what I should feel. I can barely get hurt now. Things are quiet predictable, not to mention I am challenging life to give me surprise... It's just that, I used to be inspired by feelings. Now I just get inspired by thoughts. My brain plays more than my heart. Is it because I have been doing the same things all over again that they get boring? Feelings, I've been trying to be neutral, tranquil as possible, now I am stuck deep within the tranquility. Confused. Confused. Confused. I don't know what to write. I am confused. Is happy... the chocolate gives me is important? Is sadness really bad? Is nothingness wrong? 

Dear feelings, I'm not ready to feel again.

Launching Topshop x Kate Moss 2014, Jakarta

The Icon has returned! Topshop is now collaborating again with supermodel Kate Moss. Today, April 30th 2014, is the launching of their new collection. The launching was held in Topshop, Senayan City, Jakarta. My sister got the invitation to this event by winning a quiz on twitter, posted by Nylon magazine. So she brought me there because I actually was the one who told her about the quiz. HAHA

The launching was hosted by Kimmy Jayanti, Nadila Ernesta, Dewi Utari, and Ayla Dimitri. There were also fashion bloggers attending the event. People attended that launching beautifully, they were all dressed up, appreciating the new collection of Topshop x Kate Moss.

My sister and I took a picture with Kimmy. She was really friendly. We both love her style... I think her style is just, really independent. Looking at her, reminds me of the face that opposing stereotypical thoughts of beauty. Most Indonesian people think that long hair is beautiful, light skin is beautiful. But Kimmy makes it seem like, short hair can ALSO be beautiful, dark skin can ALSO be beautiful. I find it really awesome that as a model she could actually be different, not following how the "modeling" market demands the typical beauty. So, nice job Miss Kimmy!

There were also snacks and drinks from Starbucks served in the store. I've never been actually getting any refill from Starbucks until today hahah. I can not resist foods, especially free ones. I almost took everything!. I took a croissant with raisins, a croissant with beef, a muffin, a brownies, a glass of chocolate milk. Mmmm.... fuckyeah! Still, something makes me wonder... There were many people inside the store... and the snacks weren't as much as the amount of people, how come there were still many snacks left? :o

The collections were really cool. We could actually capture Kate Moss' fashion style by looking at the collection. There were baggy clothings, but there were also "gothic" ones... The collections for me, were either rebellious or free as gypsy. My sister actually won this yellow dress... it's really cute. You can check it out on her twitter @tsabitaffh

I also took a picture with (supposedly) fashion bloggers and another picture with Nadila Ernesta. We also met someone named Yunita who was also attending that launching.

She told me about her experience when she was facing the national university placement test (known as SBMPTN). One year ago, she was in my position, she had to study and she used to come to Inten (A learning guidance place) everyday. She told me how hectic everything was. But she was also convincing me that, this phase, where I am currently living on, should be the phase where I should work really hard, doing my best, so I can get accepted into public universities.

Overall, it was really a great experience, thank you Topshop Indonesia! I look forward to the next events,

Good night! xo